As most of you know, I am not a writer. I am a person of few written words (can't say the same for spoken words!) so this is probably the last thing I ever thought I would do. But, I want a way to document this experience I am getting ready to embark on.
I am a mother of 3 wonderful children and the wife to a husband I love dearly. My family is truly amazing and I am beyond blessed to have them in my life. Growing up I have always loved children and I knew I wanted to have my own. It took a few months trying and a little doctor intervention with both my first and second pregnancies, but once that little miracle started growing I knew my body was meant for babies. All three of my pregnancies were easy and ended with remarkably easy labors and births.
It is during these pregnancies that I began to think about the other millions of couples out there that will not get the chance to have a baby of their own. Yes, some will chose to adopt, but some want a child that is genetically theirs.
While on vacation last month my husband and I met a great couple who themselves will probably become parents through a surrogate. Unfortunately they live all the way across the US in California so it may not be the best fit for us, but it was wonderful to finally hear from someone else that will be on the other side of this process, it also helped finalize our devising that surrogacy was the right thing for me.
I am choosing to be a gestational surrogate, meaning that the baby will genetically be the intended parents, I will only be carrying it for 9 months. An embryo will be created then will be implanted into my uterus through IVF.
The decision has been made but that is not to say I am not anxious about the process. How am I going to find that perfect couple that we want to help? Will I be able to find a couple that wants me to carry this precious miracle of theirs? How will I explain this pregnancy to my own children? What will my friends and family think of this?
This blog will hopefully become a journal for a little miracle. I hope I can do a decent job putting my thoughts into words. I hope that sharing my experience can open people's minds about the process. I hope this ends with a baby being born. I mainly hope someone decides to read and follow it.
